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somewhere only we know

i would want to say the familiar feelings are returning, but i would be lying. and i guess that's a good thing.

to be honest? i've temporarily given up on looking for my perfect other. i'll wait for when i am in like a different place. and in a way it would be like hitting reset again. how i can't wait.

i saw that bitch today.

my only desire is to hug and kiss him in front of her. and well run her over with my car.

but why bother i chose to be where i am today. the truth makes everything else seems like mere lies. oh well. people will get what they deserve. either that or they'd learn . i know i got what i deserved for what i did. my heart is immune to your lies. i wish my head were too.

he befriended me.

he gained my trust.

he broke through to get to me.

he made me happy.

and then my fairy tale came to an end.

he stabbed me, in my heart, over and over.

he shoved me away.

he murdered me.

and it's as if i can't get back the old, real me.

but do know that i love you always, all ways.

closest to heaven that i'd ever be-

am i a better person now than i used to be?

i'd like to think so .

but i do not know so.

sometimes, i still feel so alone. i want to be understood. to be simplified. and how it frustates me so. i don't want the whole world. just you. where are you? if only you could see through me, look at my thoughts.

i'm back to wondering whether would a simple prayer help. then i remembered.

neurotic.

loner.

dreamer.

impossible.

starry eyed.

paper-hearted.

romance enthusiast.

bring me back the happiness that you stole.

the unpretentious smile i used to wear.

i'm slipping quicker than ever.

would you come rescue me? xx

am i ever going to see your face again?

“It's so lonely when you don't even know yourself.”

i'm trying and trying to protect this little pretend world i have, where i ignore the truth. i'll hold this world of mine down for as long as i can. i know i have to let go eventually, and i would, just waiting for that second. the perfect second.

all i know is that he fills a void in me, strangely enough he helped create that void too.

this is from shaz's status,

Its not painful anymore, I'm slowly beginning to accept, that I am
meant to be like this.

Maybe someone will come and save me someday, until that day, I'll

be here, paying you back for every smile you gave, to me.

xx

if i aint got you-

i guess everything that i've been through with you has made me reckless.

(for you showered me with so much love i was truly joyful)

now i'm untethered.

i'm filled with anger and shame, that i cannot express.

truth is, everybody is going to hurt you.

you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.

-bob marley

words people, words.

there are meaningful words

and there are pointless words

and then there are words that hurt-

-all about steve

xx

i love the way you call me baby

i liken you to god.

i worshiped you.

i gave myself selflessly to you,

only wanting attention & love in return .

you probably think you're amazing .

because everybody else adores you .

but i'll tell you straight to your face that

i loathe you .

even if i loved you at one point .

irony,

i get jack from either.

xx

a long waited escape =/

She's wearing a long white dress.

She's standing on a rock in the middle of the strong, rough sea.

She's beautiful, really.

She simply yearns for a gentle touch, a kind voice.

She has streaks of blood flowing from her wrists, staining her dress.

She feels the breeze, embracing.

She can taste the saltiness of the sea.

She stands alone, longing to fly with the flock of birds above her.

She tries to move but the shackles on her legs are too heavy.

She longs to scream but she doesn't have the voice.

She's overwhelmed with emotions, emotions that doesn't allow a smile on her face.

She looks above and she wonders what's it like to live in the sky.

She looks around and she only sees water that's stretched out for yards and yards long, inviting.

The dark is coming now.

She feels all alone, cold.

She needs to escape.

So she jumps, and she drowns.

Only then a smile appeared on her face, like a diamond in the dirt, for she's free.

xx