i just want it all .

slipping.
sinking.
on some nights.

here i am again..
that need arises..
that need to slit.
that need to break.
that need to drown.

drown all of me.
press me down.
don't let me up.

raining on the inside.
where is the guy everyone has been telling me about?
he is supposedly to come in with an umbrella.
shielding me from the rain.
the world's piss. xx

if you run .

i ain't never been with nobody like you.

and baby, baby, you ain't never gonna be with any other.

Ali(2001)

stay awake .

momma, i think i'm stronger.

for my sorrows are not getting in the way of my life.
for my tears are being held back at almost all costs.
for my insecurities are quite well masked.
for my depression the world no longer sees.
for my sake, she's taking on the world.

for she knows, she has to be okay.
for she knows, she'll go down trying. xx