junk email

after such a long time, i'm finally posting on my blog..

i'm one to check my junk mails. and i got one just recently titled "sometimes"

intrigued, i opened it and there was no ad, no pictures, no music, no links, no attachment of any sort. there was just one line "My contempt responds in the wolf."

and i can't help but to wonder..what on bloody earth does it mean? haha.

it has a nice ring to it but i'm so clueless as to what it means. maybe i should actually reply to the sender, although it's supposedly junk.. just afraid i guess. i don't really know.

at least i've something to ponder over now.

starting college. moving into the student house. loneliness still lingers around me.the life i pictured i would have and the life that i am leading have vast differences. if only i knew why.


sometimes, my cigarette stick is truly my best friend.
_no judgement, no questions, no answers, no avoiding._


it's always there. providing me solace. in many ways.

life is so unpredictable. if only i could find a glitch in time and warp backwards. oh the things i would do for it.

i don't even let people know i have a blog. weird isn't it? i guess i just would like to rant and not be judged by people. people whom i love and people whom i don't know. sometimes my insight scares me. i have always been mad and pissed at the world for i can't find that one person who truly understands me but maybe even i don't understand myself.


blah. on a happier note, my birthday is in 17 days!
i really wish someone would get me a laptop. i need one.
i love birthdays. i really would want my 18th to my an amazing one. a happy one.

off to class now.

love,
ranjie xXx

p/s: my contempt responds in the wolf =] oh and i created a new word. hinching. i have no idea what it means i just blurted it out. sounds cool. hinching. i just need to define it i guess. xxx