ashtray .

he looks me in the eye .

he wants to know what makes me happy .

he does know that he does, doesn't he ?

it was . a mixed up kind of day i guess . but finally being able to have some spare time to actually post it up . hala and dana . dana and hala . i'm going to be bored and depressed when they leave = /

thanks to my own tom & jerry i've been able to keep me busy and not dealing with some bullshits. =]

i told him he had an eyelash that fell .

he picked it up .

and he made me make a wish .

and i blew it away .

he smiled .

i shied away .

this whole ashraf thing . a mistake was made . it's actually coming true . i've outgrown my feelings for him ? or at the very least i'm outgrowing them . but i've not completely reached where i wanna be . i still have hate . i still have jealousy . a shit load less , i deal with these emotions better now . but , the fact that they exist bug me .

when i feel his skin on me ,

my hair , my hands ,

i melt . he's so , perfect .

where i am is where i put myself once .

and now it's just about me getting out, alive.

hey, i'm human after all . i have to put myself first at times .

he asked me over for a movie ,

at the place where it all started .

i expected more out of all of you . shallow people . x