reminded .

things have been nothing but hectic lately .
i've not really been in the mood to bitch .
but here i am , forcing myself , for the lack of anything better to do at 7 in the morning .

daycare..united nations..tuition..smart reader..
everything was solely by my choice .
i wanted to really keep myself busy so i wouldn't really have the time to think you know ?
figured i was just bored . i just need to occupy myself , so i wouldn't sit down and reminisce .

but no . i still feel bored . i still feel the void .
my life lacks something  .
i need to do more . .  ?
what is it that i'm missing .
i was pretty convinced i don't need anymore men in my life .
i'm done chasing the ones that i lost , done looking for new ones that keeps reminding me of the one i lost .

moving on ,
you fucking CUNT .
you bring immaturity to a whole new level .
i truly do wish you grow some senses soon  .
roping my name in while you try to build your once has been world .
fuck you miserable piece of shit .
grow up and leave .
do the right thing .
i swear i feel so sorry for you .

andyeahiguessi'venotbeenproudofmyselfi'veallowedmyselftogetbacktosquareone.justlikethat.
i couldn't fight it out .
and now i'm trying to stay away .

fuckkkk . things have been BAD-GOOD-WORSE-AMAZING-shitted .

and i thought i was the one with the manic disorder . xx