voodoo child .

Why does cigarette smoke never go back into the cigarette? Why do molecules spread away from each other? Why does a spilled drop of ink never reform? Because the Universe moves towards a state of  dissipation. That is the principle of entropy. The tendency of the universe to evolve to a state of increasing disorder. The principle of entropy is related to the arrow of time, a result of the expansion of the Universe. But what will happen when gravitational forces counter-balance the forces of expansion? Or if the energy of the quantum void proves too weak? At that moment, the universe might enter its phase of contraction. The Big Crunch. So what will become of time? Will it reverse? No one knows the answer. 


one of the many quotes off Mr. Nobody . xx

white flag .

i.can't.even.write.x

mad world .

but all the drugs in this world,

won't save her from herself.

today i just got slapped by reality.

i was being a vulture, wasn't i?

now a carcass .

when will i solidify .

i need to die . xx

live with me .

i can't be there

that's all you had to say to me was

you couldn't be there

why couldn't you say to me

you won't be there

you could've warned me

you wouldn't be here

right here

you wouldn't be here for me.

the deuce with it .

that really awkward moment where you realize you have a crush on your ex boyfriend's best friend not forgetting best friend's ex fling . x

cheers .

get away ; she finally succumbed to the need of drowning the pain that's on the inside .

Release, that's what  we long for..an end to our craving..which death, perhaps, will provide. Until then, we are locked in our bodies, consumed by what we lack..at the mercy of ourselves and of each other. Release, that's what we long for. If, in the end, all we are given is release, to be no longer consumed by what we lack, then that must be our consolation..and a kind of mercy.

-the body farm ; s01e02

xx

a cacophony of emotions .

i've just been so fine with myself .
i've been getting along just fine .

then he calls and i weaken .
it was a really great night .
happy birthday, bestie .
i've done what i could do to make your 20th a special one .

we were at stairway cafe .
laughing talking .
he kept brushing his hands his legs against mine .
one part of me goes like , damnit =S
one part goes please get away from me you've done enough .

he asked me whether i had missed him recently , i said yes yes and YES.
they asked him if he wondered about me in that manner he said yes .
i don't know what he wants from me or whether is he just lonely that's why he's been calling me just to check up on me.

but i was fine .
was back to the place where it all started .
missed my home .
for a long time i was just holding my breath .
wishing we'd end up together .

too late to cry, too broken to move on.

you're in my veins .
i inhaled you again tonight .
and goddamned, have i missed you .

i don't want to try anymore .
we've been here before .
please let me disappear on you .
please .
i can't afford to be broken further .
xx