disintegrate.

how do you compete?
how do you be the best of the best?
when there are already the lot of them right there.

in every area i think i'd excel, or supposedly win or something.
i'm severely lacking.

falling behind.
forever lurking around in the shadows.
will my time ever come?

or have i not done enough.
am i not on par with the rest of the world?

so many pretty girls.
so many smart ones.
so many decent ones.
so many slutty ones even.
beautiful, and whatnot.

if we had a scoreboard to rank everyone in this world, why go so far in this state, where will i stand? =/

crushed.
and they say, that's just how the cookie crumbles.

xx