it's not Thanksgiving, but.

Despite the things that took place that saddened me,
I'm here today reporting how happy and content I am.
With age comes perception, I suppose.
Looking back, put me in the same situation a few years ago, I'd be mutilating myself.
Now, I'm here, embracing life.

I'd like to say thank you.
Thank you, for doing what you're doing, what you did, or what you're about to do.
I've learnt how to be more positive and death rarely crosses my mind.
I feel silly now, thinking back then that seemed like my only option.
Oh, silly indeed.

Be it movies, songs, experiences, just plain people, I'm a whole lot better now.
I still do have my downs, yes.
But they aren't as morbid, they aren't as long.

I used to ask, "What have I done to not deserve not even a slice of happiness?"
I've just realized it all now.
I am happy.
I am content.
This is my life.
Everything can only go uphill from here.
However so, doesn't mean there aren't going to be rocks along the way.


The word I might be looking for is......acceptance. Yes.

I can't change many things and I'm more at peace with myself now once I've taught myself to be used to the idea.

I love my life.
I love the people I've met and kept.
I love the sods I've encountered.
Everything is just, fine now.
I know that.
I've been lazy to blog about my depressed moments because they aren't driving me insane as of late.

That worries me, that I might lose my muse once and for all.
Oh well, everything always comes down to a choice, right?
Choices made based on priorities.
Tonight,
I'd just want to say thank you, and I'm more than just ok. =]  xx