you are my only exception =]

a friend said with every post i put up she cringes and goes like oh great she has another thing to be depressed about. which is hilariously true =]

i am in a much better shape.

i don't cry as much.

i've not cut myself in say a month?

had a crazy lot of tendencies but didn't follow through.

my friends? they're amazing.

they make me feel as if i'm on top of the world.

which is what i need right now.

they keep telling me it's okay to fall in love again.

irony isn't it?

i used to be the one giving that speech.

my guard is up.

i'm terrified at the idea of falling in love again.

love never lasts. =]

"I had sworn to myself that I'm

Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk"

they all say i'm better off without him.

and sometimes i believe them.

the wound tends to reopen every now and then.

otherwise i'm fine i guess.

i'm hopeful =]

i just don't like waking up every morning and having these flashbacks.

makes me harden my heart. convinced everyone is the same, that they'd leave.

insecurities, risks, they're always going to linger on.

oh well.

i can only live day to day the best i can yeah?

hakim made me realize that if i know i'd be happy accomplishing something, why not do it? even if my mind set is that i'm going to die anyway. thank you =]

well. exams are coming. i need to salvage my 2nd term. wish me luck.

i just want to be happy .

ranjie over and out --