chicken scallop with cheese =]

ben's bday . oh god what a day to remember . it was really nice and all . and then , there was the part where he did the thing i've always dreamt of it being done . like at gai3's wedding but there was a picture and i tried finding but no i didn't get a picture but it's like embedded in my head .

i stood . he stood in front of me . we were talking , eye to eye . and his hand came over and was holding my chin , to wipe cake . but it was so sweet . and it was like his hands, my chin , everyone staring . i was completely lost in the moment . and the hug after i puked? *sighs* and it's eid today again . the last eid was when i started falling HARD for him . as soon as i woke up i texted him . and he called me . and he was sleepy and i was sleepy so we did the whole prom night talk again . it was heavenly . *sighs again* so many things to write . so many things i don't want to forget . but there are so many things . and so many emotions . and so little time .

my babies are leaving =/

i heard exaggerations .

i got mad .

still telling myself it's not worth it .

so fuck it .

being happy is not a problem, finding reasons to be happy is .

imisshimandallhisscent'sandwhatnot. xx