can't be fucking bothered .

so many thoughts .
so many ideas .
frustrated .
i'm dying to burst .
i'm dying to yell .
i don't want to be everyone's pillar .
i'm hollow on the inside .
look at me .
i'm falling to pieces .
look DIRECTLY at me .
see me for how i am .
i want to fucking SCREAM .
please shut up =/
please listen to me .
listen to my silent cries .
it's so hard to bear this world and it's issues .
i'm barely breathing .
don't run to me .
run away . . .
it's so hard to do this .
i can't even be bothered to unload myself unto all of you .
will the day ever come that someone fucking RESCUES ME?

like wooohoooo . i'm problematic myself .
fuck this shit . =/ xx