199th .

I wear these marks of shame-
Not with pride for my head's held low-
I aim beyond where I stand today-
And if weakness is a virtue ,
Then I am queen and misery’s my empire .

there's this guy ♥
the one and only wonder of this world , well my world ♥

i can't help wonder if it's possible for things to work out between us again . 

everything seems fine . 

but i'm afraid to even think of anything , for fear of jinxing it . 

but what is it? 

i can't hear his unspoken words . 

but he still makes me happy .

he makes me the happiest ♥

nothing else matters ,

nothing else compares . 

how i can only wish we have a chance of being us again . 

i'm afraid . 

deeply terrified .

for what if he realizes he can score one far more better , 

one who didn't break him in the past .

insecurities . =/
but i don't want to fight the butterflies =/ xx