stay high .

it has been awhile so it could be a long one .
it could not be .

someone told me that i live in a bubble .
not quite sure how i feel about that .
not quite sure if i like feeling dismissed easily .
you don't know what i've been through,
you don't ask.
so, is it easier?
to assume that i eat butterflies and poop rainbows?


it's easy to be sullen .
everyone has their battles and everyone is wounded, defeated .
it takes a WHOLE lot to smile despite .
to stay positive despite .
to love despite .
to crave despite .
to hope despite .
to be, despite ...


and the other issue on my mind .
please, quit .
i've this angst-eerie-feeling that you'd be reading this .
and i want you to just put a stop to all that you're attempting to do .
you're causing me discomfort .
i'm genuinely disturbed, not touched .
you can write me a hundred essays and i wouldn't run into your arms and gaze into your eyes .
so, please, stop.