perhaps i just wanna disappear .
this downward spiral seems to be never ending .
i mean yes i have had good days .
but everything feels so superficial . . .
how else can i break it down to you mom . .
that perhaps i do want to achieve the generic dream you want for me, while having all the fun on the way ?
words don't work on you anymore.
neither does tears.
for now silence is all i can present you with .
for i not know what am i to become anymore ?
met the future step mom .
she's . indian .
like REALLY indian .
scary much .
i do not know what i want .
do i want my dad to move out ?
so my so called step dad can move in ?
can i just despise them both ?
if only i am able to survive on my own.
i wouldn't have the need for this drama .
people.
family.
they are all simply so . ignorant .
perhaps i'm ignorant too .
i just wanna diminish .
i wish i had the courage .
i look at all these photos .
i look at all these people .
i wonder what they had to give .
to live a life so content.
i'm a disappointment to myself and the world .
i just wanna find a cliff and jump right off it .
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