everything seems bleak.
nothing to look forward to.
same shit different day.
where do i find the courage to get out of my comfort zone?
i'm not taking up any more self challenges with the lame excuse of already giving up alcohol.
love is a place i find myself looking for?
when i just don't have anyone to turn to.
when i don't have anyone i would want to burden.
i just let another me take over.
i feel this sharp pain,
and a rush of relief.
red, my favorite color.
staining me.
stings more when some tears are dropped onto these art i find myself fascinated with.
how do you dare to dream ?
when i'm still having doubts on whether do i dare to live?
success.
it's what we all aim for .
somehow i see it in my head every moment.
i just don't seem to have any tendencies to act on it . . ?
procrastination, my best friend .
i really need to stop hanging out with you.
you don't seem to be doing me any good -___-
does a simple i'm sorry supposed to make you feel better and forgive and forget ?
yes .
because i want it to work for me as well .
would you please just hold me .
i need to know in your embrace is where i belong .
dare i say i do not have any more feelings for him ?
absolutely not .
i'm just trying to repent my sins so one day he'd be ready to take me back .
he is a good person .
i know he is .
i believe he is .
but does that diminish me ?
xx
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