is fine, good?

copied off shaz's status,

If you lie to yourself long enough, does it become true? If you tell yourself you are a good person, you are happy, you are perfectly fine, is it true? Or am I still as miserable as I always was, licking wounds that run deep.

i knew how shit was going to end.

i just had hopes that maybe it isn't what it is.

one half of me is going like fuck it i know i'm capable of much more he's merely a jerk and i can do so much better.

and the other half is just pretty much depressed. wow i suck that badly as a person? haha .

chery cole sang,

" anything that's worth having,

is sure enough worth fighting for.

quitting's out of the question.

when it gets tough gotta fight some more. "

i fought, and i lost.

i just need to gather up the energy in me to move on.

i'm hurting, bad.

but i'm to pick myself up.

i've gotta be one dumbass to be breaking up with the same guy in various ways and times.

but he's a dumbass that makes me happy.

i just knew i can't pretend that my world's complete anymore.

*sighs*

i fought, and lost.

i fought, and lost.

i fought, and lost.

take it all away baby.

take my heart in your hands.

make me mean something.

need me.

want me.

love me.

xx