rescue me..

she got herself facebook! I'm so proud of you *sobs*

I'm so bored.. I think i sorta did okie in my mqa subjects. Grats you =] Hopefully there is no repeating next semester..

I told him i don't want to be his number one.. When those words came out of my mouth i was surprised..then i realised i would never be so why bother demanding for it..

He makes me so happy yet at times it hurts so bad..how long do i want to endure this i've no idea.. I try to distant myself, just to make you happy..our ideas of relationship are worlds apart yet i wanna be with you. Why? "it beats the shit outta me" ..

I just wanna feel loved every second of the day..is that too much to ask for? It sucks how i have to ease up for him but he can't 'tighten' up for me.. I heard his explanation i did that's the reason why i bother trying but ... I just feel so broken and empty on the inside.. This is not how i should be feeling i know which is weird.. I just want to curl up and cry. I don't want to wake up and face this cruel world anymore. It just kills me. It eats my happiness little by little, and not like i'm that happy in the first place anyway..

Rescue me. I just wanna breathe.. Euthanasia has like such a nice ring to it.. Help me anybody?

I'm reaching out while my heads underwater and i struggle and i struggle hard but no one is there.. No one took my hand.. No one tried.. Why is that so? Maybe it's meant for me to realise i'm all alone and i have no reason to keep on breathing anymore..

Those who are dead are not dead they're just living in your head.

So i should go away..all in search of me, of someone who loves me, and somewhere i belong..

The only question that's left unanswered is, would i do it or would i not..

I wish it were that simple.. Xx