bewafa**

Everyone leaves me stranded
Forgotten, abandoned, left behind
I can't stay here another night-

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I can't change who I am.
Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me.
And in this short life, there's no time to waste on giving up.
My love wasn't enough.

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I hate me,
For breathing without you.
I don't want to feel anymore for you.

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I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.

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Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

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i'm off to kedah tomorrow.

i wouldn't have my sharp knife.

i wouldn't have this diary of mine.

hope i have the strength to go through any shitty moments there.

because breaking down and crying is an option i'm trying to eliminate-

xx xx