70th post . . boy aren't i on a roll-

funkadelic-maggot brain.

i can just sit and think about everything with one track.

a 33 year old guy told me stuff.
stuff i knew.
stuff i just realised.

success is the sweetest revenge.
which is true.

and i know i can be successful.
i know i want to be successful.
i just gots to get over this barrier.

nobody is holding me back except i.
i have to overcome no one but me.

i know i'm capable.
of anything. and everything.

yet everything just seems so impossible to grasp.
so i cut.
i cut deeper.
gosh the pain makes me feel so good.
i'm not suicidal.
i just get so lost.

i thought to myself that i should quit this habit.
but i need to replace it with something?
what else can i do?

i asked.
i thought.




i simply couldn't come up with anything better.
sighs.
i don't want to be a miserable person.
i know for a fact i don't.

i just can't seem to get away from myself.
from the usual depressed self.
so help me help me yeah? x