tenets and tenets

from 'Drop the Pink Elephant' by Bill McFarlan.

" So at what point do you learn to engage the brain before putting the mouth in gear? "

" To be wrong hurts us deeply. It shakes our self-confidence. It makes us doubt our ability. But the truth may well be that we simply got it wrong. "

" The truth is easier to remember because it happened. Lies are figment of the imagination. As such, they're easier to forget. "

i spent sometime just spacing in a bathroom cubicle. i keep telling myself not to call him but i keep doing so. and i keep getting sucker punches to the gut.

sighs.


liberate me of my thoughts, my responsibilites, and of other beings.
i want to just fall asleep. and be happy in my head. and i wouldn't mind not waking up. who would want to wake up to this world?

i've been down everyday it's really taking a toll on me.
at this rate i wouldn't have much space left.
rescue me already.

save me from myself.
oh how i beg of you.
this tortuous feeling inside of me. . .
is really become unbearable.

why can't i seem to escape anymore.
i always found my way.
now everything seems so far away.

i'm sorry i'm not her.

i'm sorry i'm not a perfect daughter.
i'm sorry i'm not a perfect friend.
i'm sorry i'm not a perfect girlfriend.
i'm sorry i'm not who people want me to be.


i'm truly sorry i'm not her.
i wish i could be her too.

xx xxxxxxxxxx