love? habit?

all of a sudden last afternoon i came up with something i couldn't solve.

is this thing i'm feeling love? or is just a habit?
i can't decide. how am i to tell the difference-

if i love him and if he loves me then it should be to hell with what the whole wide world is saying yeah?

because he said he isn't comfortable with how he has to live up to people's expectations now. and i'm like =S uhmm my expectations you dummy you're dating me.

sigh.
but i don't want to be forcing shit on him because people should think about shit on their own.
they can't expect people to feed it to them.

would i be cruel to just ignore him from now?
but when someone did it to me i hated it i know how it would feel. .
do not unto other what you don't like being done unto you but i just think he would be indifferent to him like who am i really?

another trophy? another picture in his gallery?

and this happens everytime a guy leaves. i get so mad at myself for letting my guard down. stupid stupid ranjie. she would never learn would she.

ohh well. i wouldn't be human if i learnt from my mistakes. i've said this before somewhere. maybe in a previous post.

which brings to what if i repeat shit. i don't wanna sound like a broken record.


Stars fall like dust, our lips will touch.
We speak too much.-

i miss our long talks. .
i miss our long walks.
i miss just smiling.

i miss those days.
why did you have to go and leave me.

i hate you xx